Here it goes again....?

So it's August 8, months later and the blog thing didn't go so well....or at least updating it as often.  It's 3:30 in the morning and my room is warm and the fan is going.   Wonder if we'll get a thunderstorm? Unless we already had one.

Just had to stop by and write something.  Just feeling right now that I have no one to talk to.  Kinda feel like if I tell someone my feelings, I'll get rejected, judged or worse, ignored.   Just having typical feelings of a single girl?  Kinda feeling like I am being used and lead on....story of my life..minus the physical stuff of course...goes without saying.  I admit there are tears, but why wouldn't there be.  Right.

So what is the right amount of thinking and what is too much??? or too little??  Thank god I have been single...and will be for a while....? Prob...and I am ok with that.

So I just got distracted....man the pain won't go away...thank goodness the doc appt is less then a month away:p...wonder what will be going on there? we'llll seee

So I am gonna go listen to some music and chill before bed......

Write again soon;)

Oops...

So much for blogging everyday right? Hey I am only like 3ish days off.  I'll make it up and prob blog more than once a day if I remember.

So it's 2:11AM and I am still up.  Normal right? But I have an interview tomorrow morn er.. this morn @ 10:00!  It's with Resolve Corp., so I have no idea what company is hiring.  Guess I'll find out fer shore tomorrow.  I always get so nervous for these things.  I guess you should cuz if I was over confident then that would be suspicious.  I am not even sure what to wear. Prob should have done that today, but I was "sooo busy". Oi vey!

So the the woman on the phone said that if the interview went well and the"background check" passed, she'd know by Friday or Monday depending on the time frame and that she's in Summerside this week.  It's not what I wanted but there's nothing else unless I move which I could but that's extra money I could use for something else.  Forget the fact that it would be a great experience, and such.

Watching all these fashion and beauty blogs makes me feel like I should be doing more in that area.  It's not like I have somewhere to wear makeup or fancy clothes to all the time.  

I need to stop saying, if and but and maybe.  I need to start saying when and how and yes.  Right?  

Back to the fashion thing.  I need to find more clothes that will look good and some nice fancy stuff too.  I don't really have any fancy stuff that I haven't worn at least 10 times.  

I plan to do that.  

Well, to bed I go...or atleast try to go to sleep.

Goodnight world...talk to you again soon!

This the first day of 2010 and I am starting up a blog. Well not starting it up, but continuing from where I left off years ago. Just looking back at the old posts make me happy that I took note of what happened all those years ago.

Not sure yet if I will make this blog public. Well somebody's gonna read it...so privacy isn't that realistic like it would be if I was writing this down in a paper journal that I hid somewhere deep in my room.

So reflection time. 2009 was well good for the most part. It was another year of firsts. My first cruise, first out of high-school graduation, first kiss and so many more. I graduated with a diploma in Travel and Tourism making me a Travel Counsellor. Getting a job in that is not that easy. For pretty much half the year I was unemployed...not someting to brag about I know. It just seemed "so hard" for me to find a position. I feel like if I had just got a job right after the Games it would have been better.
Well I am going to make 2010 better. It's the year of the tiger, and I was born in the year of the tiger. Might as well put that fierceness to use and just get out there. I do so much better when I just let go and go with it. Not be so uptight and stubborn. Things I shall improve on this year.

As well the weight issue. I have to get it into my head that if I was supposed to thin, attractive, and wanted I's already be like that. That I was placed on this journey to learn so much more about things that other people would not know? Instead of saying "Oh I'll try to workout and get fitter this year"; I'll actually get up off my fat..yet bony rump and do it.

There is soo soo sooo much more to say, but I will leave that to the rest of the year. I am not promising daily blog posts, but everytime I am on the computer I will be posting something...atleast one word?!

1/1/10....looks stange...
Peace!

My first time...

so here i am i dunno thought i'd try this blog site so jsut saying hi anyone who read this